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Saturday, October 3, 2009

Its been quite a while.
the last time i post...
the past few week i could say there's up and down.turning point for my baby...my family is starting to accept the baby.thats a good thing i fought a very tiring fight..my family is not so open minded as some other person families..my family needs time to accept..sometime people do grown up but some not..i could see it..nobody knows my life and understand deep down into me..only god knows..i have given up my life totally..as i lost sometime greater than i could withstand that blow...no one understand that...my dream is to be a policeman..that is dash too...last time i do understand people thinking. thats why i have a lot of friends..as i know what are they thinking...but now its seem like that skill of mine is lost too..i couldn't say how much i regret doing that..why there's no one is there to guide me when i am down...the girl that i love she knows my case..i guess she doesn't believe my story too..as i hurt her too much..its not her fault as i am the one who hurt her..i tried to surface her that problem of mine..she didn't say anything too..who can help me...past few days she kept giving me pressure after pressure...i told her to relax but up to now its no use..just yesterday i am mad at her...as like i fought this battle for her and the baby..than she wants to give up..i know you have that mental breakdown of yours..is like unfair to me..you kept stating that i will mistreated you and that baby..i won't so is my family too..i fuck care the person who change your view i don even care..you say that i am unfair to you..than is my family easy to talk?..ask yourself is my family you ever care?...let me ask you do you even care about me...is like i am alone at most event...no one can support unless you do as you are mine future wife..i am very tired i tried you say you are very tired...is like wat the fuck to me am i not tired too...all you know is complain and complain..complain you are tired complain you want wish to take baby away..complain my family complain my sister...let me asked you this small question...did you ever think of the better solution to solve these problem rather than complain this and that...i can't pamper you too much ok..i have balance order..which means i won't side you too much. as i will compare who is right and who is wrong and than i will compare..i am a balance type of person..and please grow up abit as don use die infront of you...die cannot solve anything...die is only childish act...since you said you are not childish than wake up to reality...

isaac blogged at 3:13 AM

May your light shine...
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