Wednesday, August 26, 2009

the past 10 days..it maybe up and down to my relationship...maybe we haven get to understand each other more lor..i trust her a lot i know she won't betray me at all...so sometime we to have fights k..but we are ok in the after a while...sometime ppl do get jealous when his girlfriend..is talking to another guys..to me i am ok...because i more towards the europe side of ppl..we won't get jealous so much...we tend to be more caring to the girl...so ya sometime we may get too determine to get the stuff we wanted the girl to have as the gift for her...we may get a bit too serious...yes sometime we do have fights too...now currently i am flashing my thoughts...did i talk to girls nowadays no right..i been talking to her but all i felt that she is hiding something from me...it maybe a weird feeling to me but i hope if there's for me to know make sure do let me know as all my brothers knows that i hate to be the last one to know...i will get very flare up no matter who is that ppl...currently i am sorry to look through your handphone...but to me is cool...if you talk to anyone its ok i don mind lorr..if you talk to yr ex i also don mind...
because ppl do have life on its own...me myself have life too...these few months i didn't talk to all my gan mei mei and friend whom is female because i don want to cause misunderstanding between my baobei laopo and them too..and baby don get misunderstand with these words just now lor..because all i want is you in the front and the only seat..no more others girls lorr
isaac blogged at 5:24 PM
May your light shine...
in the darkness...
bibi i am sorry about yesterday incident i couldn't bear to say how much sorry to you..but i couldn't just couldn't as no matters how many sorry i said before you will still be sad...today morning i woke up look through your blog your facebook..emotion takes over me...i felt sad looking through the sms..makes me even deeper...i just hope you will be someone that i would want to marry to..i told myself..i am changing i am trying to change..its already getting good result..
isaac blogged at 9:45 PM
May your light shine...
in the darkness...
haiz i don't understand why couldn't my lao po just listen to me...my lao po is tired and going to faint..i asked her to rest yet she didn't wan to rest..this shows that i don have the power to talk to her...ask her to do this and that wat...haiz i am such a failure...why couldn't she listen to me why why why...currently i so angry and fill with sadness why couldn't she listen to me
isaac blogged at 5:17 AM
May your light shine...
in the darkness...
Wednesday, August 12, 2009

time to change some skin le lorr hehe
so i change le hope its nice k
these few days still sick somemore enter into hospital liao
isaac blogged at 6:39 PM
May your light shine...
in the darkness...
the past few days a lot things happen
1st: i resign from my job
2nd: these few days my heart pump very fast and it seem to be out of breath
3rd: i am worry about my lao po when i am not around in the zone x
these few case made me so sad for past two days
whole thing goes like this
friday in themorning my lao po came to my house she called me 14 times and sms me too
i didn't wake up to pick up the call hmmm by than i found it odd lorr...my maid knock on my door telling me my lao po is here...so i saw her...she came to my house than next thing i found myself going back to sleep...she felt boring so she slept too...than my mom knock on to the door and she told me that she taking the maid to plaza to settle stuff lol so i woke up to bath...after going to the amk hub putting my shirt than we head off to eat lorr...since i starting work at 1615 i thought of takin her back home...so when we walk i felt very tired very tired..i have no idea whats cause that to happen...i felt my heart pump getting weaker....so slowly i felt out of breath...beginning to use my mouth to hunt for air...i can see that she was getting to worry...i said i am fine i still can go to work...so ya after a while of walking i couldn't take it...
no choice i still have to work...i told her i can work...so next thing she do is that she called joan my manager that i couldn't work on that day last minute basics...than she scolded my lao po and me too...haiz i could understand her feeling too but no choice lorr...that day till now i am still feeling very weak and getting weaker each day i don know why...
thats why i want to see my lao po everyday...i really want to see her
i worry about her...God do not take away me...i want to see her i want to be with her
isaac blogged at 8:52 PM
May your light shine...
in the darkness...
isn't it a very nice married couple hahasDear god please grant me these wishes i really wants to have it
please let me be the most lucky guy k please lord
isaac blogged at 9:43 AM
May your light shine...
in the darkness...
updating my blog hahas, this few days happen a lot of things...perhaps only some people get to knows about it right?. its ok...once happen its already happen and ya hope everything is in a smooth journey from now on....yesterday night i reached home around 2plus after fetching my lao po back to her home...i been thinking...thinking of my bibi...so my thoughts wandering again.. thinking,imagine whats my future with my bibi..when can i have her by my side..my bed,pillow,kitty is cold..but if there's someone beside me it will be warm... one of my friend asked this question : why didn't get for her a couple ring ? i reply : i didn't want to get for her because i don't want any kind of rings i want wedding ring with her that is more better a couple ring...
i want to keep my finger for the only one k...
there is a question i can't answer myself either which is :
loneliness
God give a nice and my ms right...but he always likes to give me challenge..
sometimes i might felt lonely in this world
as i don't talk to anyone..usually i will isolate from the world of friendship
perhap i am too much of a mystery lorr...but bibi... trust me i have already tell you everything
nothing more to hide le..just that i am too mystery le lor...bibi you know what happen to me during my darkest period of my life..whats is the cause of it...
lets drop all the emoing topic k...
bibi knowing you is my best present...of all you came into my life which i want someone badly to lend her shoulder for me to rest on...from the period till now i am very tired i have lost everything friendship my goals,myself etc...bibi do you know that everytime i hug you i felt the warm in your smile and yr warm heart..i felt if time can pause let me hug longer...the time we spend together is nice fun...i cherish it...becuase i can see you...but sometime like weekend i didn't manage to see you i turnout sad very sad i didn''t know the reason why....
bibi trust me on this i will marry one day it won't be long away...i swear to god cross my heart
love bibi so much
isaac blogged at 12:29 AM
May your light shine...
in the darkness...