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Tuesday, July 14, 2009

somethings meant to be forgotten...God has give me a wonderful girlfriend...at first i felt that i couldn't believe but yet i believe it...slowly god wants to take her away from me....why god at first you gave me the perfect woman but now you trying to take her away from me..what do you want me to do..i commit too much sin..i knew about it...but how can you toy my feeling...what the fuck you want me to do...if you want just take my life with you don't toy my feeling...i love her...somethings is already over and i have forgotten esther and push her away from my life...and things never notice that she saw my photo with her...god please i want my wife back...please you already know that my heart isn't doing well and anytime when i faint i will be joining you....i am so tired so tired all i want is her beside of me taking care of me...yet wat the fuck do you want...why can't you god grant me just the little wish of mine...

dear baby hope you will be reading this
i jusat forgot to delete it away,i don't have the intention to go back with her...as i found you...you took my breath away..you took my heart when i see you...now that you bu li wor because of her...i tried to sms you...you didn't want to reply me...i guess you are sad...i swore to you already that i have already gotten over her..why do you still don't believe me...now is 7.50pm..i had vomitted my blood out its nice dark red colour...felt like fainting so i am sitting down on my chair resting...i didn't want to blackout as once i faint thats it dear...i am sorry i am not a good boyfriend...i only know to show care and concern and protection but other stuff i am weak on it...sorry i fail you....
since you bu li wor le..colours has exit from my life...feeling have gone out my life...if you don't believe me i can't do anything since i had let my baby down le...God bless her..God i love her...God i cannot do anything without her...God please

isaac blogged at 4:32 AM

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