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Sunday, March 29, 2009

haiz today very bad luck when did i did something wrong
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haiz wat the fuck am i doing in this world and in my life
the story goes like this:
1.45am
i was going around ppl blog to blog looking if there is any of my circle of friends created a blog
than i went into xiao mao blog..i read and read her blog...its time to go see some link....i saw ''our blog'' hmm i was thinking so fast xiao mao created the blog for us...so i happily open it up..than i saw something that shocked everything such as mentally mood haiz the detail part is a under private so ya back to the story....i read and read the blog i was getting emo and emo le...as i felt that i am not so pro than her ex stead...i getting more heavily and heavily mood...so ya came back to xiao mao profile blog...i saw 'broken' maybe its her new blog so i open up and take a look so again another blow went through me haiz...i read and read i can feel that she still like/love her ex lol.....so my mood getting even worse (from bad to worse).....thats ok i told myself....but when i try to sleep all i can see is that ''the words that coming from the two blog....so i can't sleep at all for the whole night...when its about 6plus i was at the jetty....i saw the first light in punggol jetty...i was just looking at the port of johor.....i am thinking wat am i suppose to do when i see her is it ''pretend that nothing happen'' or ''ask her everything'' or ''just run away'' ???
i didn't came up with any answer...its about 8 plus in the singapore time i was at my house close curtain...i saw there ppl looking at my flat from the opp side flat....the detail part i didn't want to say much...after that i chiong and play hide and seek with them.....than i go meet my xiao mao...in my journey to her house i text her asking abt the blog she say that she no feeling with him but i did not feel anything relieve so at that time my mood is very heavy le....when i reach there i put up a good smile with her...just wan to give her something happy mood but deep down my heart its very terrible very sad...never mind so we went to meet kah hou and the ppl in my unit npcc lorr than we head to beach road to buy their stuff lorr....so after that me and xiao mao we went to sim lim square to buy and repair her Iphone so after that she broke her news to me that she need to reach home at 6 k lorr...since you have to go back liao than forget about my plan
as my plan was to take her to orchand cathay...shop for things and go around maybe take some neo print pa as she once told me that she had a long time since she took one le so i wanted to make her happy by doing that....than after that i hope i can take her to the singapore flyer to have a ride up as i saw her blog wrote that she never exp that yet so i hope that i can make her happy lorrr... but my plan fail haiz thats ok lol....currently my mind is very confused and moody i don know wat to do to make her fall in love with me deeper...can anyone teach me haiz i try everything....as she can read every single of my mind....i believe she exp it before haiz now we even less often wat we usually do...so everytime when i look into her eyes she usually ask why than look away seem to think something else haiz i don't know....

isaac blogged at 3:00 AM

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